February 6th 2011: Past, present & the future.

First off, yes I know that it is technically February 7th, but this is my "Photo Reflection" for Feb 6th. I am a little late and I almost just went to bed but then I remembered that I PROMISED myself that I am going to do this EVERYDAY for as long as I can.

Today's Photo:

       The series that I did of these flowers is one of my favorites. My room was in the basement at my parents house and I had probably 4-5 different photo series hanging on my walls. I believe this series that this photo is from was my favorite. In my opinion, photos can brighten any ones day. Especially these.

       I remember the day I took these. It was at Benetti's. A nice little coffee shop in Raytown that I miss a lot. I wish there was a little locally owned coffee shop around my house. There is a starbucks about 10 min away. Maybe I will start going there again to edit, listen to music, drink coffee & think.

       Anyways, the day this photo was taken was a special day, for me at least. I am not going to mention names, but it was the day that my ex-best friend and I went to get coffee & catch up after having the biggest fall out I have ever had of anyone in my whole life. I remember she was wearing my skirt. I think it was in March or April of 2008. The air was cool as we sat outside and laughed and smiled at each other. I remember exactly what I was wearing as well. But that detail is not as important.

       Now, her and I no longer speak, and when we do, it is like two hammers hitting heads together as hard as mentally possible. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change things, not with just her but with a lot of things that have happened in my life.

       But then I think... If I could go back and change that very minute that I found out what was going on or what had happened or when I said this or that... then my life today would be different. Even one minute of change from 1, 2, 3 or even 4 years ago would make my TODAY different which ultimately means that I would not be how I am right now .

       Even though I have a lot of problems today, I like who I am and where I am, and even where I am going- even though I have NO idea where I am going right now.

I am thankful for all of my trials that I am suffering from right now. Some day in the future I will look back and be very grateful for what had happened then, which is now- JUST as I am reflecting upon the day that this photo was taken and the person I was with. Funny how that works out, right?


Enjoy :)